Tonight will be nice

Tonight will be a long night.

No school tomorrow so I guess that's a plus, but I'm still going to have to get in bed early considering I'm tempting fate by hanging out with that certain object of my affections; the one that could actually land me in jail so easily. I wish I knew exactly how long that restraining order lasted. Surely no more than a year and a half. Wow. It's really been that long? Crazy. Time really does fly.

I did occur to me that I look kinda stupid saying I'm keeping this a secret, while at the same time, signing my name as Gail Sanders. I've already been through this and I'm unhappily able to report that Gail is not actually my real name. It's simply an alias I was planning on using when running away with my current "lover". Only that was almost 2 years ago.

The only frustrating part about having a life as crazy and hectic as mine is that fact that you want everyone to be able to see what's happened, but theres just so much to tell that it's annoying having to go back and go through it all again. I just wish I could make a movie about it. That way I could just press play on the movie and two hours later they could've relived life just like I have. Maybe then they might be able to understand. Just maybe. If I'm lucky. Surely it would be a hit on Lifetime.

I can see it now. Some story where a young girl grows up, her mom is a drunk and her dad doesn't care. She's a cutter and bulimic and she is desperate to get away from her family. Then when she's 12 her parents ship her off to a mental institution and not long after that she falls in love with a guy who, in a years time, will be helplessly in love with her and will do anything to be with her, even if that means threatening to kill her parents when they forbid the two young lovers to see each other. This of course will land him in jail for a short time. They wont see each other or talk for two years and finally when the girl manages to get her life together, her mom has an affair and abandons the family and just when she's about to fall apart, she learns that her long lost love is entering the army. So, in a last ditch effort to make things right, she contacts him, going against the restraining order, and her parents forbidden warning to never see him again, and she does the unthinkable. She falls in love with him again. And to connect the reoccurring motif of tragedy, it all happens just before he is to leave for the war in Iraq.

Oh yes. So totally Lifetime.

That's my life; summed up at least. It spans from about the age of 6 up until this whole refalling in love thing, which actually occurred about two days ago. Oh, the never ending drama. What joy.

:)