Well it's Thursday.
That means tomorrow is Friday. I talked to my dad this morning about "spending the night at Izzy's" tomorrow night and he actually okayed it. Wow. He did ask questions. What time? Does he need to drop me off? How long will we be there? What will we do at Izzy's?
Don't get me wrong. I feel horrible lying to him, but I'm dying to see this guy. Plus I've been so good the past 2 years. I've barely even lied. And it was nothing big, even then. I know many people are probably scolding me right now, but honestly. Never let anything get in the way of true love. We let Love do it's part. It didn't fail. Even after two years. Now it's our turn to prove to Love that we are willing to sacrifice anything.
I love knowing that people are reading this and saying "How ignorant is she?!" I know many people who would say that. There's no telling how many times I've actually heard that saying before. It's not easy being 14 and telling people that your boyfriend of 3 months has asked you to marry him. Trust me. It's not something that is easy to trust people with. There's no telling how many people laughed in my face. That hurt me more than anything. Actually. That's a lie. What hurt more than anything was going back to school after that summer and trying to sound strong and laugh off the fact that my parents had not only forbidden us to see each other, but they had also sent him to jail. People laughed for days, which only made my determination for this to work out in the end even stronger. Just think about what all those people would say if we got married. I want people to believe completely with all their heart that age doesn't matter. Love can happen at any age. Even ours.
Arghh. PreCalculus problems. What joy. I'm planning on working until 6ish. Then daddy is taking me to Starbucks to meet one of my friends for "tutoring". False. I'm actually meeting Chris and we're going to go hang out and do stuff for a few hours. I hope things go well. No doubt they will.
I'm planning on breaking the news to daddy while Chris is away in Fort Jackson. It will be better that way. There will be the two month period then and he'll have time to think it over. Like I've said before, I'll be 17 by then and if I haven't already, by that time, decided to move out and he throws a fit about it, well that will be my determining factor. I know it's probably going to break his heart, but he needs to understand that I am growing up. He needs to learn how to deal with that.
Ever since I was young I had to take care of my mom. Her drinking and drug abuse problems kind of forced me to grow up. It wasn't easy. Though sometimes people think I'm still young, I'm more mature than a lot of people think. I'm ready to grow up and be out on my own, making my own decisions. And many would say that if I'm so mature then I wouldn't be lying to my dad and sneaking around. My response is that I've made many mistakes. I use to do this when I first met this boy. Sneak out and spend the whole night with him. And it made me so happy. It's been 2 years since then and I don't regret it then. Actually quite the opposite.
I look back on it and smile. It makes me happy knowing I was that in love. So this time, just like the last, I'm not letting anything stop me. If this turns out to be a mistake then so be it. I will learn from it. But at this point i know that if I don't do this now, if I don't follow my heart, I'll come to regret it later. I'd rather do things now and regret them later, then not do them and later wonder how life could've been different if I did.
I love knowing that people are reading this and saying "How ignorant is she?!" I know many people who would say that. There's no telling how many times I've actually heard that saying before. It's not easy being 14 and telling people that your boyfriend of 3 months has asked you to marry him. Trust me. It's not something that is easy to trust people with. There's no telling how many people laughed in my face. That hurt me more than anything. Actually. That's a lie. What hurt more than anything was going back to school after that summer and trying to sound strong and laugh off the fact that my parents had not only forbidden us to see each other, but they had also sent him to jail. People laughed for days, which only made my determination for this to work out in the end even stronger. Just think about what all those people would say if we got married. I want people to believe completely with all their heart that age doesn't matter. Love can happen at any age. Even ours.
Arghh. PreCalculus problems. What joy. I'm planning on working until 6ish. Then daddy is taking me to Starbucks to meet one of my friends for "tutoring". False. I'm actually meeting Chris and we're going to go hang out and do stuff for a few hours. I hope things go well. No doubt they will.
I'm planning on breaking the news to daddy while Chris is away in Fort Jackson. It will be better that way. There will be the two month period then and he'll have time to think it over. Like I've said before, I'll be 17 by then and if I haven't already, by that time, decided to move out and he throws a fit about it, well that will be my determining factor. I know it's probably going to break his heart, but he needs to understand that I am growing up. He needs to learn how to deal with that.
Ever since I was young I had to take care of my mom. Her drinking and drug abuse problems kind of forced me to grow up. It wasn't easy. Though sometimes people think I'm still young, I'm more mature than a lot of people think. I'm ready to grow up and be out on my own, making my own decisions. And many would say that if I'm so mature then I wouldn't be lying to my dad and sneaking around. My response is that I've made many mistakes. I use to do this when I first met this boy. Sneak out and spend the whole night with him. And it made me so happy. It's been 2 years since then and I don't regret it then. Actually quite the opposite.
I look back on it and smile. It makes me happy knowing I was that in love. So this time, just like the last, I'm not letting anything stop me. If this turns out to be a mistake then so be it. I will learn from it. But at this point i know that if I don't do this now, if I don't follow my heart, I'll come to regret it later. I'd rather do things now and regret them later, then not do them and later wonder how life could've been different if I did.
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